I
have often said, “I’ve been attending Free Methodist churches since before I
was born!” I graduated from a Free Methodist college.
Then,
things changed a bit. I attended a
United Methodist seminary for three years.
Next, after having begun my pastoral ministry in the Free Methodist
Church, I earned a Master of Divinity degree from a liberal, Presbyterian
seminary! It was a challenging eight
years of study as a commuter. Although
the foundations of my faith were repeatedly challenged, I came out strong.
During
these educational years – that didn’t end until my fortieth year – I also
acquired a basic unit of Clinical Pastoral Education at the Pittsburgh Highland
Drive Veteran’s Administration Psychiatric Hospital [that’s a mouthful!]. 900 hours of supervised chaplain work,
verbatims, and small group process!
[And to think: I paid for this privilege!]
I
also participated in a Domus Deo program through the Roman Catholic Church in
Pittsburgh. It was a very beneficial,
self-reflection, meditation program that also included a fair amount of small
group engagement!
During
these early ministry years, I SERIOUSLY considered joining the military
chaplaincy! On three occasions, I
inquired and prepared to make the leap into that form of ministry! I still think it would have been a good fit for me and a place for effective ministry.
Then
– having been in ministry for fourteen years, I sensed some gifting in the area
of counseling and decided to get a counseling degree. I acquired that degree after two years of
full-time study - while continuing to pastor a growing church - at the Franciscan University of Steubenville, which is a
charismatic Catholic community! I
worshipped in that community for two years and made many close and valuable
friendships. Some of the most powerful
worship experiences of my life took place on that campus.
One
last reflection: Over all my years in
ministry I participated in the local ministerial associations. Their corporate services usually focused on
Good Friday and Thanksgiving. I enjoyed
working with pastors from many diverse denominations during those years.
WHY
AM I TELLING YOU THIS?
Because,
if you’ve followed me, I’m a bit of a mongrel.
J I’ve
deliberately exposed myself to a diverse field of experiences, leaders and
environments.
And
today, I find myself in our fourth year of attending an evangelical Presbyterian
church. Debbie has joined and will soon
be ordained as an elder in that church!
Notice: She’s more deeply
involved in leadership here than she ever was in the churches I served [Of course, she also worked and primarily
raised our three kids.] ;-)
Sorry,
if you were looking for something short, you can feel free to bail out now….
Having
led Free Methodist churches for nearly forty-three years, I find myself missing
certain aspects of ministry that had become very much a part of who I am.
WHAT
ARE THEY, HAL?
1.
I
miss altar calls.
I wouldn’t expect everyone to understand this,
but I miss what might officially be referred to as a ‘Call to
Discipleship’.
Typically, at the end of the message, a pastor
would ‘open the altar for prayer’ and invite people to come in response to the
challenge they’ve just received.
Some Sundays, no one would respond [or the
‘call’ might not even be given]. Other
Sundays, a few might respond; and then a
few others might come forward to pray with those who had responded. Many times, services ended quietly with
people still praying around the altar.
Praying for and with one another was a warm
expression of caring and engagement.
2. I miss altar prayer
I know, this sounds repetitive, but the altar
was a special place for prayer as I was growing up and leading churches.
Sometimes people would pray at the altar before
worship even began. I’ve seen people
come to the altar while we were singing hymns or during pastoral prayer
times.
It was a place to seek God, unburden oneself,
and openly indicate a desire to be closer to the Lord – a place to deal with
the problems and stresses of life!
As indicated earlier, others would often move
forward to pray with those who responded in such a way! It was a beautiful thing! I miss it!
3.
I miss lay involvement
Being part of the Wesleyan movement, there has
always been an emphasis on lay involvement.
During my leadership years, I tried to limit my
leadership to the time when I was giving the message. As many other parts of the service as
possible were turned over to trustworthy, gifted and trained individuals. Many voices were heard during the flow of
worship!
4.
I miss a free-style of worship
Much could be said here – I’ll TRY to be brief!
One of the characteristics of my ministry was a
desire to keep people engaged and interested in what was happening in
worship. Over the years, I found this
was best accomplished by diversity, creativity and [to a certain extent]
unpredictability.
I know – that sounds strange.
Methods I utilized included:
·
Frequently
changing the order of worship
·
Using
many people in various ways during worship
·
Writing
engaging dramas that brought the message to life [this, of course, gave certain
people an opportunity to be involved who were drawn to this kind of
ministry!]
·
Incorporating
humor into worship. This was
occasionally done via the dramas, video clips, stories, testimonies, and
PowerPoint pictures.
·
Creating
engaging congregational readings – often based on modern versions of the
Bible! [These go best when led by
competent, trained lay leaders.]
In essence, variety! Keeping people engaged, focused and
interested!
5. I miss going to the altar to receive Holy Communion.
In
theme with what’s already been said, I have always preferred providing Holy
Communion in such a way that people had the opportunity to come forward, kneel and pray at
the altar – if they so desired.
Because of the sacred nature of this experience, we always provided two or three people [male
and female] in our foyer for anyone who desired special prayer during the
Communion time. [With people moving to and from the altar, it was easy for someone to discreetly slip out for prayer. Occasionally, decisions for Christ were made as a result!
The focus of the whole day was confession and
restoration by the power of the risen Christ!
6.
I miss the anointing
with oil for healing!
Providing for the open exercise of the
exhortations given by the brother of our Lord in his New Testament letter: James 5:14-18.
Is anyone among you sick? Then he must call for the
elders of the church and they are to pray over him, anointing him with oil
in the name of the Lord; and the prayer of faith will restore the one who is sick,
and the Lord will raise him up, and if he has committed sins, they
will be forgiven him. Therefore, confess your
sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may
be healed. A prayer of a righteous person, when it
is brought about, can accomplish much. Elijah
was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed earnestly that
it would not rain, and it did not rain on the earth for three years and
six months. Then he prayed again,
and the sky poured rain and the earth produced its fruit.
The practice of this grace can be
time-consuming and awkward in public worship.
However, it can also be enormously caring, emotionally and physically
healing, and a physical expression of love!
In a world filled with such addiction,
brokenness and pain – how can we ignore such clear instructions?
_______________________________
Every
tradition has its own ways of doing things.
I’m trying to adjust to a new tradition after a lifetime of experience
in a somewhat different one. I’m less
elastic than I may have been when I was younger. I openly confess to missing these aspects of
worship that I had become comfortable and familiar with.
At
the same time, I am embracing new people and growing through my engagement with
them. I hope they’ll be patient with me
as I try to find my way in a new system that challenges me every Sunday yet
also frequently leaves me with lingering longings for the worship experiences I’ve
just described!
Blessings
on the Church!