I have a faint memory of
slipping into my bedroom during the Christmas season when I was a young boy,
where I would lay on my bed in the darkness and brood. It didn’t
happen regularly, but I seem to recall it happening several times. What
was this about?
I lived in a healthy,
happy home where I was loved and cared for. My needs were met and I had no real
problems in my young life. Why do I associate these few random times
with Christmas?
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I am proud of the
churches that offer a ‘Blue Christmas’ service. It provides an
opportunity and gives permission for people to have trouble while processing
through the Christmas season. I wish that I had thought of this idea
when I was leading the church.
As a counselor who has
worked with hundreds of couples and individuals over the years, I think this is
a worthy topic to address.
Why do some of us have
periodic bouts with depression? Why do they occur when they
do? Are there any tools we can employ to help process these
times? Is there knowledge that can help us understand and cope with
these times?
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There is no way to
address this topic comprehensively in a single blog post – but let’s at least
introduce the topic.
Many draught-ridden
areas around our globe have learned to benefit by tapping into underground
rivers and reservoirs. That’s a positive thing!
Similarly, I have come
to understand that some of us have rivers of ‘subterranean sadness’ that
periodically find their way to the surface and cause us problems.
What provokes these
eruptions of sadness?
Sometimes – like the
Christmas season – it could simply be the emphasis on joy and
celebration! The simple expectation that we should be
happy may – in and of itself – trigger sadness. We’re speaking of
the emotional realm here where things are not always governed by laws and
principles! Our emotional make-up is integral to who we are and how
we experience life.
Some psychologists
suggest that our minds log everything! Everything? That’s
a lot to process and keep organized [or suppressed]. Everything
includes bad experiences and sad moments that marked us
significantly. It’s easy to understand how memories that we’ve
repressed tend to gravitate to the surface and become a problem for us again.
REPRESSED is a term used by counselors that implies pushing down
uncomfortable feelings, experiences and memories into our subconscious without
fully dealing with or understanding their ramifications.
Counselors believe that these memories percolate on a
deep-memory-level. Consider this a dormant
stage. However, when circumstances in our life provoke these
memories, they are believed to migrate back into our consciousness along with
their recollections of pain, sorrow, anger, hurt, etc., etc..
So, we’re rolling along,
doing pretty well, when suddenly – through life’s normal interplay of people
and events – we find ourselves feeling vulnerable and distracted. We
don’t understand what’s going on. Emotions are POWERFUL! They
handicap us! They have the power to distract us and distort our
normal way-of-being.
The result –
DEPRESSION!
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Most of us need help,
instruction, comfort, and trust to navigate our way through these complex,
emotional sand traps.
The best place to turn
is to a trained and qualified counselor! By doing so, we gain:
· Their objectivity
· Anonymity [We see them for a period and then
move on…]
· Their expertise.
Many turn to friends and/or
family, but this incorporates risks. Sharing secret hurts and past
experiences with those from our closest circles runs the risk of changing the
dynamics of those relationships - something that we may
not anticipate, but may regret.
Some pastors have
training and gift packages that allow them to be effective interventionists for
these life-interruptions. Others, however, have no interest and no
skills that are appropriate to this challenge.
Before closing this
article, I’d like to mention three observations that I have made through the
years that have helped me cope with and learn from my depressive dips.
1. Having served as a spiritual guide through the years, I have
observed that there is always a satanic factor involved in these depressive
episodes and that it usually has most to do with their timing!
It
might be helpful to sit down with a journal and ask yourself some questions:
· Why am I experiencing this depressive episode right
now?
· What is going on in my life that has triggered
this sadness?
· Is there a particular memory that is pervasive
right now?
· When have I felt this way before?
This is an excellent
opportunity to exercise the ancient, spiritual practice of
meditation! Sit quietly and uninterrupted and talk with God about
your present experience. Ask God to shed light on this unwelcome
experience. Write down whatever thoughts that may come to your mind –
however unrelated they may seem. At a later time, these observations
may make sense!
2. I have to talk if I want to grow through this experience!
So
many have protested through the years: “What good does talking about it
do?”
Well,
the science is now in! The evidence reveals that the process of
talking changes the chemical make-up in our brain!
Talking
– especially with a properly trained person – can indeed help! We
gain perspective from a guide who has our best interests at
heart. We have truths and observations reflected to us that allows
us to look at a situation in a new way. We gain insights! These
insights will help us with future eruptions.
3. There is usually a spiritual factor that I need to recognize, work
through or confess.
Here
is where speaking with a pastor might truly be helpful.
It is
also a point where an increased exposure to scripture might open doors of
understanding.
There
are books that might be helpful. Two that I would recommend are both
by the late David A. Seamands: HEALING OF MEMORIES and HEALING FOR
DAMAGED EMOTIONS [both currently available on Amazon for very low
prices].
When
I deal with a persistent depression, I turn to D. Martyn Lloyd Jones’ book,
SPIRITUAL DEPRESSION: It’s Causes and It’s Cures. It’s heavy reading
that most would not respond to. I don’t believe I’ve ever finished
reading it! Usually after the first five chapters, I have gained
insight and perspective and have made adjustments to my spiritual life.
Do an
honest self-search! What does God want you to learn from this
experience? How is He working to create in you a greater dependence
on Him?
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I hope these
ruminations have provoked some hope in you as you address the ‘subterranean
sadness’ that is rattling your life currently. There is
hope! You can grow as a result of this depressive
experience. You can gain understanding that will equip you to be
more effective in dealing with these interruptions in the
future! GOD BLESS AND HELP YOU!