STRUGGLING TO FIT IN

I have often said, “I’ve been attending Free Methodist churches since before I was born!”  I graduated from a Free Methodist college. 

Then, things changed a bit.  I attended a United Methodist seminary for three years.  Next, after having begun my pastoral ministry in the Free Methodist Church, I earned a Master of Divinity degree from a liberal, Presbyterian seminary!  It was a challenging eight years of study as a commuter.  Although the foundations of my faith were repeatedly challenged, I came out strong. 

During these educational years – that didn’t end until my fortieth year – I also acquired a basic unit of Clinical Pastoral Education at the Pittsburgh Highland Drive Veteran’s Administration Psychiatric Hospital [that’s a mouthful!].  900 hours of supervised chaplain work, verbatims, and small group process!   [And to think:  I paid for this privilege!]

I also participated in a Domus Deo program through the Roman Catholic Church in Pittsburgh.  It was a very beneficial, self-reflection, meditation program that also included a fair amount of small group engagement!

During these early ministry years, I SERIOUSLY considered joining the military chaplaincy!  On three occasions, I inquired and prepared to make the leap into that form of ministry!  I still think it would have been a good fit for me and a place for effective ministry.

Then – having been in ministry for fourteen years, I sensed some gifting in the area of counseling and decided to get a counseling degree.  I acquired that degree after two years of full-time study - while continuing to pastor a growing church - at the Franciscan University of Steubenville, which is a charismatic Catholic community!  I worshipped in that community for two years and made many close and valuable friendships.  Some of the most powerful worship experiences of my life took place on that campus. 

One last reflection:  Over all my years in ministry I participated in the local ministerial associations.  Their corporate services usually focused on Good Friday and Thanksgiving.  I enjoyed working with pastors from many diverse denominations during those years.

WHY AM I TELLING YOU THIS?

Because, if you’ve followed me, I’m a bit of a mongrel.  J  I’ve deliberately exposed myself to a diverse field of experiences, leaders and environments. 

And today, I find myself in our fourth year of attending an evangelical Presbyterian church.  Debbie has joined and will soon be ordained as an elder in that church!  Notice:  She’s more deeply involved in leadership here than she ever was in the churches I served  [Of course, she also worked and primarily raised our three kids.]  ;-)

Sorry, if you were looking for something short, you can feel free to bail out now….

Having led Free Methodist churches for nearly forty-three years, I find myself missing certain aspects of ministry that had become very much a part of who I am. 

WHAT ARE THEY, HAL?

1.    I miss altar calls.

I wouldn’t expect everyone to understand this, but I miss what might officially be referred to as a ‘Call to Discipleship’. 

Typically, at the end of the message, a pastor would ‘open the altar for prayer’ and invite people to come in response to the challenge they’ve just received. 

Some Sundays, no one would respond [or the ‘call’ might not even be given].  Other Sundays, a few might respond;  and then a few others might come forward to pray with those who had responded.  Many times, services ended quietly with people still praying around the altar. 

Praying for and with one another was a warm expression of caring and engagement. 

2.   I miss altar prayer

I know, this sounds repetitive, but the altar was a special place for prayer as I was growing up and leading churches. 

Sometimes people would pray at the altar before worship even began.  I’ve seen people come to the altar while we were singing hymns or during pastoral prayer times. 

It was a place to seek God, unburden oneself, and openly indicate a desire to be closer to the Lord – a place to deal with the problems and stresses of life! 

As indicated earlier, others would often move forward to pray with those who responded in such a way!  It was a beautiful thing!  I miss it!

3.    I miss lay involvement

Being part of the Wesleyan movement, there has always been an emphasis on lay involvement. 

During my leadership years, I tried to limit my leadership to the time when I was giving the message.  As many other parts of the service as possible were turned over to trustworthy, gifted and trained individuals.  Many voices were heard during the flow of worship! 

4.    I miss a free-style of worship

Much could be said here – I’ll TRY to be brief!

One of the characteristics of my ministry was a desire to keep people engaged and interested in what was happening in worship.  Over the years, I found this was best accomplished by diversity, creativity and [to a certain extent] unpredictability. 

I know – that sounds strange.

Methods I utilized included:

·         Frequently changing the order of worship

·         Using many people in various ways during worship

·         Writing engaging dramas that brought the message to life [this, of course, gave certain people an opportunity to be involved who were drawn to this kind of ministry!] 

·         Incorporating humor into worship.  This was occasionally done via the dramas, video clips, stories, testimonies, and PowerPoint pictures.

·         Creating engaging congregational readings – often based on modern versions of the Bible!  [These go best when led by competent, trained lay leaders.]

In essence, variety!  Keeping people engaged, focused and interested!

5.    I miss going to the altar to receive Holy Communion.

In theme with what’s already been said, I have always preferred providing Holy Communion in such a way that people had the opportunity to come forward, kneel and pray at the altar – if they so desired.

Because of the sacred nature of this experience, we always provided two or three people [male and female] in our foyer for anyone who desired special prayer during the Communion time. [With people moving to and from the altar, it was easy for someone to discreetly slip out for prayer.  Occasionally, decisions for Christ were made as a result!  

The focus of the whole day was confession and restoration by the power of the risen Christ!

6.    I miss the anointing with oil for healing!

Providing for the open exercise of the exhortations given by the brother of our Lord in his New Testament letter:  James 5:14-18. 

Is anyone among you sick? Then he must call for the elders of the church and they are to pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord; and the prayer of faith will restore the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up, and if he has committed sins, they will be forgiven him. Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. A prayer of a righteous person, when it is brought about, can accomplish much. Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed earnestly that it would not rain, and it did not rain on the earth for three years and six months. Then he prayed again, and the sky poured rain and the earth produced its fruit.

The practice of this grace can be time-consuming and awkward in public worship.  However, it can also be enormously caring, emotionally and physically healing, and a physical expression of love! 

In a world filled with such addiction, brokenness and pain – how can we ignore such clear instructions? 

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Every tradition has its own ways of doing things.  I’m trying to adjust to a new tradition after a lifetime of experience in a somewhat different one.  I’m less elastic than I may have been when I was younger.  I openly confess to missing these aspects of worship that I had become comfortable and familiar with. 

At the same time, I am embracing new people and growing through my engagement with them.  I hope they’ll be patient with me as I try to find my way in a new system that challenges me every Sunday yet also frequently leaves me with lingering longings for the worship experiences I’ve just described! 

Blessings on the Church!